I love growing into the person that God had in her mind's eye when I was conceived.... Lately and more specifically today, I have been working on letting go. It is so true that only when we learn to let go can God or the Universe have it's way with our lives. It seems so simple, but it rarely is very simple at all. After all, we are holding on because we don't want to lose the precious feeling, relationship, thing that has brought us so much joy. Conversely, if we are holding on to anger, or guilt or sadness, we somehow think we are giving up on something that is so important to our idea about who we are and what we are worth.
If we can take a breath, if we can let it all go, the reward will be stunningly great. I know because once in awhile I have been able, by God's grace, to let go of a relationship, of complete anger, alienation, and unforgiveness. For me this only happens with faith; faith in something far greater than myself that can sort through the detritus, the mistakes, the complete train wrecks of my life and somehow redeem all of it.
This morning I cleared for letting go, or the fear of letting go of my daughters and their families. I intellectually know that I can not by my advice giving, criticism, or worry change one thing about the way they live their lives. I make it sound like they are all drug addicts, but they have wonderful, productive lives with lots of love and happiness in them, it doesn't stop me from worrying, or offering unsolicited advice or thinly veiled criticism, I just can't for the life of me help myself.
It is essential to let go if I want the kind of relationships with my precious daughters that I long for.
The only way to have the relationships I long for, is to let go.
Letting Go. Something about 99% of the population would benefit from learning to do (myself included). I think there must be something about our human nature that pushes us towards trying to control everything. And in so many instances that control is such a joke. We have so very little control. But that is such a frightening thought, we grasp at this illusion. So the fact that you can even take a step back and recognize some places in your life that you feel you need to let go puts you about 10x ahead of most ppl, haha. Takes a lot of faith. Love you :)
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